Pukul 12.58tgh tadi dalam kereta ke masjid, ada text masuk.
Trit..tritt..
"Hi, still remember meecha? I js told by BAE friend she pass away tis morning bcoz of denggi" - Suhana Liew Abdullah.
Biasa-biasanya text gadis cina ini (jangan panggil amoi mereka tak suka tau) aku tak berapa nak balas. Bukan apa, nanti dia suka ajak melakukan perkara tak senonoh. Seperti makan puding dan minum susu misalnya. (sue, if you're reading this, no no, you're not liddat one meh. ni hen hao he hen chong ming he hen mei. ni hai le ma? dui bu qi for the mess i've done ya? =) )
Aku baca text dan tutup slide tutup phone balik. Dekat sampai pintu masjid aku text dia,
"Is this true?"
Lebih kurang 10minit lepas tu, sue balas,
"Pls no joke. Is true."
Aku slide handphone balik. Dengar khutbah. Solat. Tuju kereta. Pergi lawood.
Sementelaah tempoh tu aku fikir, macam kau terbersin doh. Ah-chum dan kau jalan buat balik apa yang kau tengah buat sebentar tadi. Lumrah alam. What goes around, comes around. Ya ia hukum mature nature untuk seimbangkan alam. Cumanya, bila benda macam ni jadi pada rakan kau, ia semacam ada satu tingling feeling yang kau rasa.
Macam, apa ni? Memanglah selalu cerita orang meninggal ada di surat khabar. Tapi terjadi pada diri sendiri atau kenalan terdekat? Tak pernah (atau jarang) nak terlintas di hati. It does make you feel how would you like to prepare for your death. How would you like people to view you when you're dead. Apa yang nak ditinggal untuk mereka yang masih ada. Apa legasi yang kau nak tinggal untuk mereka. Heck, mungkin lagu apa yang kau nak dimainkan masa funeral kau (okay ini memang kurang diajar). But the truth is, you're never gonna answer or do all this.
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*What i think much earlier on to write is kinda slightly vary form what i wrote here*
*sigh*
I'm sorry meecha, i'm not good with words ya know.
She was a great girl. Sweet. Bubbly and stuff. Rugilah kau tak kenal dia.
Amanlah kau di sana ya meecha. Thanks tolong aku semasa karnival sukan dulu. You're the best!
For what it's worth, i really dedicate this post for her. No disregard or disrespect were intended even so if it were somewhat viewed in here. Regardless of self-interpretation, this is my way of saying condolences. Again, don't forget to say your prayer.
Rugilah Kau Tak Kenal Dia. She's Great, Sweet, Bubbly & Stuff. Rugilah Kau Tak Kenal Dia!
